Susi.

2010-12-11T23:13:00.008+01:00

Random thoughts.

I felt that it's time for some blogging again. Maybe it's a sign of feeling better, but thoughts are swirling around in my head, more than usual. Once again I followed a spontan idea and it turns out not beeing waterproof enough. It leaked. And yet, once again I learned a lession. It feels as if life's only about learning lessions. This time I followed an idea of moving to Berlin with a heart burning for the city. Without prepairing, without any clue what to do I came here. But I believed that things would work out better than last time. People were telling me "-No" but I was stubborn enough not to listen. You people were right. Now I'm here ready to go back to Sweden again. Without any place to stay for some months. I don't know what is waiting me back home, but it's surely the right thing to do. I can feel that, even if it feels like a break-up leaving Berlin. I wasn't strong enough to stay here this time either. But NO DAY has been wasted, no. Thank you Berlin for, once again, letting me explore your hidden- bars, clubs, streets, people, music, alleys and myself. I love you, I love you, I love you and I will do everything I can to move back here. It might take a while, but I'll surely come back baby. Until then, let's see what life has for me, hidden in it's sleeves.

Good morning Berlin.

Through my window.

I'll miss you.

2010-07-06T03:05:00.008+02:00

... And then the sky turned pink...

2010-06-23T04:44:00.012+02:00

Welcome back my old friend.

Finally I got my camera back. Exactly the same as the one that got stolen, but a new one. I'm so greatful. Even if it was hard getting money from the insurance company, I finally made it.
I've been without a camera over two months. During this time I've felt like a big part of my body roughly has been cut. Disabled kind of... These two months have just been a long long waiting. Somehow, I feel I've got better. I see another deepness. Without the camera I've trained in a subconscious way. So many times I've been looking at the surrounding, sighing and thinking that I could have captured it, and how I should have done it.
Or, maybe it's just the camera that is better or just different. Maybe cameras have souls...
Either way, I'm happy over my new baby.

~So, below you'll see some try outs at home.~

2010-06-21T00:35:00.009+02:00

Checkpoints.

Every year, at every different season, I compare the same time with the years before. What did I do? Where was I? Who was I? Like "checkpoints". When I look at myself sometimes, I can't see the things that have changed around me. Or, the feeling I haven't accomplished anything in my life yet. I don't think I'm the only one... That's why, looking back at these "checkpoints" is a good thing to do. I look back and try to catch the feeling I had this time last year, the year before that, the year before that and so on. How did I experience everything around me? How did I take care of my thoughts? And myself?
Slowly I realize that I've grown a lot, a lot of things have happened and that I don't want to be that person I was. So this time next year who knows what I'll be thinking about me now?

Summer -08

Summer 08

Summer 09

Summer 08

2010-06-15T03:41:00.009+02:00

Imagine someplace nice...

Where the flowers look like balloons.

Where the time almost stands still.

Where you get blinded by the sun.

Where you slowly can walk where the land kisses the ocean.

Where you try to understand the definition of infinity.

Where you can smoke in the water :)

2010-06-14T02:29:00.002+02:00

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Everyone should be.

2010-06-09T01:31:00.008+02:00

So let there be silence.

2010-05-24T00:35:00.011+02:00

Time Again...

Now it's time again, time for some blogging.. It has been a hard beginning of the year for me. Many bad things happened too close. Now I feel relatively calm and can finally focus on myself and how to go on with my life. Not only bad things have happen. Some good things have happen too. One good things is the opening of the second hand store. Here I can create things, find new ideas and be inspired. Now I got something to take care of, something to maintain.. Let's se how everything will end up, but now I know I'm here, and will be here for a little or a long while. My camera got stolen, so, I have to look through old stuff that has been forgotten, to work with. Without creating photos I feel as if a big part of me has been cut off.

Now time for bed and I feel good about myself writing here again...

2010-02-06T22:28:00.015+01:00

Moving fast, so fast, the snowflakes won't stick.

Today I asked my brother what he does to get through something hard. He said, it's just to be, because it is how it is. It made me thinking a bit. You can never get further if you don't accept the truth, and the situation. Face the problem. It is just how it is.

One thing that makes me exited is the opening of the premises where we will run a gallery and where we will sell beautiful second hand clothes and old vintage stuff. Now I have something to work for, and soon, maybe in one week, I will buy a real professional camera! Now things start to move.

Deep snow.

Fast snow.

Slow snow.

Snow skeleton hand?

Ghost flower.

2010-02-01T21:10:00.008+01:00

Light vs. dark.

I once said to a girl that was depressed, that there's always a light inside of you, even in the darkest moments it's still there. Even if you don't feel it or see it, don't be afraid. You just have to believe in it. Then it will shine infront of you. It will lead you.

Don't be afraid of the darkness. If it wouldn't exist, there wouldn't be any stars.

2010-01-28T21:32:00.002+01:00

Dreams in winter.

~Dreams about my future is swirling around in my head. There's so much I want in my life right now, and I can't wait until these things will happen. Sooner or later this will come to me, only time will decide together with my will. The future will be an awfully big adventure.~

2010-01-25T22:48:00.008+01:00

Deep frozen.

I picture myself getting freezed down. Become dreamless, breathless, timeless. And after some years when my body finally defrost, my worries and troubles would be gone, and things would be changed. What if the body and mind could work by them selves while I'm gone. What if they could take care of every problem, sort them out, pick together the pieces that's parted and fix them together again. But this wouldn't work. It will only be a wish sometimes.

Under the ice.

2010-01-24T01:34:00.012+01:00

Day on the island.

On the island the winter's breeze is o pure and fresh, the wind is blowing right through you. Cleaning the body and bringing it all over the ocean. This time is so beautiful there. Today I have laughed a lot, a wonderful feeling. I've seen the beautiful things around me. Now I'm out of words. Maybe because this day has been good.

Mom and son.

Sleeping quietly.

Sture on the icey road.

Don't mess with me.

Christian on the ice.

Christian on the ice #2.

Fuck off!

Alone and happy.

2010-01-22T23:37:00.013+01:00

Begravning | Funeral.

Nu har jag sagt farväl till min pappa, även om det känns som om jag aldrig kommer att kunna säga farväl tillräkligt. Men en begravning hjälper en människa att komma längre i sorgeprocessen. Innan begravningen kände jag mig vilsen och levde i en overklig värld, jag kunde inte förstå vad som hade hänt. Nu, när jag stod vid kistan, förstod jag att han verkligen är borta, att hans kropp var inuti och aldrig skulle vakna mer och gå igen. Nu var verkligen tiden att gråta ur mig allt jag hade. Jag tog tusen farväl och kände att nu kan jag inte göra mer. Min pappas begravning var det vackraste jag sett och det mest sorgsna jag upplevt. Jag är så glad över alla som kom och ville ta ett sista farväl. Hans vänner, kollegor, familj, nya generationer och nya familjer. Människor var samlade och det var ok att gråta. Alla delade tillsammans samma sorg. Vi pratade om hur fantastisk människa min pappa var och om de stora sakerna som han uträttade. Min pappa skulle vara så tacksam och nöjd över allt! Jag känner det. Den hårdaste delen är över, nu skall jag försiktigt försöka dra i livets trådar. Men det kommer att ta ett tag innan jag kan släppa känslan av att stå framför kistan och att aldrig vilja gå därifrån.

Now I've said my goodbye to my father, even if it feels like I'll never say goodbye enough. But a funeral helps the human to go further in the process to mourn. Before the funeral I felt so lost and lived in a surreal world, I couldn't understand what had happen. Now, when I stood by the coffin, I understood that he's really gone, that he's body were inside and will never wake up and walk again. Now was the time to cry out all what I felt. I took thousand of goodbyes and felt that I couldn't do more. My fathers funeral was the most beautiful thing I've seen and the most sad thing I've ever experienced. I'm so happy of all the people that came and wanted to say the very last goodbye. His friends, colleges, family, new generations and new families. People was gathered and it was ok to cry. All people together was sharing the same mourn. We all talked about the great person my father was and about the big things he performed.
My father would have been so thankful and satisfied over everything! I can feel it. The hardest part is over, now I'll try to pulling the threads of my life carefully. But it will take a while until I'll release the feeling of standing by the coffin and never want to leave.

Programmet jag gjorde för begravningen.
The program I made for the funeral ceremony.

Mormor Brita.
Grandma Brita.

Maria och hennes fästman Micke.
Maria and her fiancé Micke.

Sture och Christian i ljus.
Sture and Christian in light.

Bordet där vi efteråt åt tillsammans och hyllade pappa.
The table where we afterwards ate together and honoured my father.

Nu försöker jag se allt fint runtomkring mig och glädjas av det som är mig kärt.
Now I try to see everything beautiful around me and be happy over the things and people I love.

2010-01-16T19:27:00.010+01:00

Hands of time.

Time is passing by. Changes the world everyday, leaves dust in the corners. Time makes cells in the body die and replace it with new, changes me and you everyday. I will do something I've never done before. I will lay myself in the hands of time. Now can things only get better.

My new found friend.

Sometimes the time stops for a moment.

2010-01-03T00:07:00.013+01:00

Vila i frid pappa.

Nu är du borta och jag saknar dig så pappa. Jag vet att du vakar över mig och finns runt omkring mig helatiden, och att du alltid kommer att göra det. Jag kan känna det. Jag hoppas att där du är nu, känner du ingen smärta längre. Bara frid. Att du får träffa alla du har saknat. Det gör så ont att jag aldrig får höra din röst mer, att aldrig mer få prata med dig. Tack för alla fina samtal vi har haft. Även om du inte är här och upplever vad som kommer att hända i mitt liv, vad det blir av mig, så vet jag att du kommer att kunna se mig och vara stolt. Jag skall kämpa med dig vid min sida och göra mitt liv rikt och jag skall vara stark. Tills vi ses igen. Älskar dig pappa.

Rest in peace dad.

Now you're gone and I miss you so dad. I know that you're watching over me and are around me all time, and that you always will. I can feel it. I hope that you don't feel pain anymore where you are now. Only peace. And that you will meet everyone you've missed. It hurts so that I will never hear your voice again, to never be able to talk to you. Thank you for all the great conversations we had. Even if you're not here and experience what will happen in my life, how things turns out for me, I know that you will see me and feel proud. I will fight with you by my side and make my life rich and I will be strong. Until we meet again. Love you dad.

Familjen samlad.
The family gathered.

Pappa med sin tvillingbror Håkan och med Bent.
Dad with his brother Håkan and with Bent.

Detta är mitt hopp om vad du ser där du är nu.
This is my hope of what you see where you are now.

2009-12-26T22:15:00.012+01:00

Christmas eve.

This christmas eve was wonderful. So cosy and full of light. I celebrated it with my mom and siblings at my sister Lindhas, Christians and Stures beautiful place. It's out on an island outside Gothenburg. We ate, drinked, calibrated and opened presents. Later we had to go by boat back to Gothenburg, when the ferries already stopped going. A perfect ending of a cosy evening. But unfortionately beeing out in the cold made me sick again.. But it was worth it, a very cheerful christmas.

Sture twinkle eyes.

The christmas table, place for many people.

Sture twinkle eyes II.

Susi in the christmas tree.

Beautiful christmas tree.

Grab a star.

This little girl called Barbie were on visit with her friend Batman.

Under the christmas sky.

2009-12-20T19:40:00.006+01:00

Voice gone.

As I can remember I've only lost my voice one time before in my life. This is one thing I really hate. My sickness doesn't get better, the other way around, it only gets worse. When I loose my voice I feel like a prisoner in myself. I can't speak, laugh or the most important thing.. I can't sing. I can't go out in the cold and I have to watch the world through my window, thinking and hoping my voice comes back soon.

2009-12-19T01:14:00.007+01:00

Sound of winter.

It's crispy outside. It sounds so beautiful when my bike is driving through the snow.. I love it. I have to drive slowly otherways I can fall to the ground. Forget about the cold. My legs are aching and my nose and cheeks become red. It's just the quietness that talks to me.. The snow isolates the world around, and the only thing you can hear is the squiking, cracking, crounching and crispy sound the bike and snow makes together.

Wintersleep.

Icey eye.

Sofia - Queen of winter.

2009-12-16T23:11:00.008+01:00

Sickness/Good start.

I've become sick. I've found out that I always get sick every time I come to Berlin or go back to Sweden. Must be the bus, a great opportunity for bacillas and viruses to swirl in the air until they find another body to mess up. Must be that. But good things can come with this. When I'm sick I always get so creative and find everything cosy. Time for myself. After this one, I think a good start will come.

My hysterical, girly peppercake castle that I made today. Look at the little balconies. I don't believe in less is more. And I just burned my finger once.

Sofias dogs are my favourite dogs. Diva and Tara. And of course Gibson and Oliwer too. I hope Oliwer is still alive. Because of the family situation, we had to give him away.. God I miss him so. Thinking that I will never see him again, makes me so sad. I think about him often, always will.

I make these flower brosches in different fabrics. Cute huh? :) I sell them f0r 50 kr (5 £) each! You can also buy them at Sofias Byrå

2009-12-14T22:56:00.007+01:00

Slippery outside.

Yesterday I was at my nephew's baptiste/birthday party. I played a song to him with him at my side and he was totally still while I sang. Great to see the family again and so crazy to see a little kid growing so fast. Where does time go?
I just came from outside and now it's winter for real, when you breath in the cold frosty air and your chest get's stunned for a while. Welcome slippery, glittering, beautiful, freaking cold winter.

The party dude Sture.

Too many things.

On the way out to Donsö.

I spy birds.

2009-12-12T22:51:00.008+01:00

Home again.

After a time in Berlin it was time for me to go back to old SWE again. I'm so happy over the time I had in Berlin this time. But now it's time for me to start all these stuff I have to do.. But first some good sleep. Traveled far through the whole night.

Tired Susi.

Sometime in the morning somewhere.

At track 3 looking at track 2.

What do you see?

Berlin house under construction.

Janek in action! At Equalizer's great release concert.

Finally the train goes towards home.

2009-12-05T23:12:00.007+01:00

Hearts in Berlin.

Right now I'm back in Berlin for a little trip. I'm so happy to be here and meet everyone that means a lot to me again, and I'm filling up my inspiration source. I've already been playing violin at my dear friend Madeleine Bloom's release consert, lovely experimental music, check her out! I'm spending time here with the most beautiful Janek <3. My heart is beating. I'm blushing, I feel creative and I'm smiling.

Fragile/Strong

I love to capture windows, but I also love to capture stairs, but not to walk up.

Astrobar

2009-11-27T21:03:00.010+01:00

Lights and pain.

My arm is hurting like hell and my body is restless and is cramping. I took the shot yesterday and thought my body were strong to stand the side effects but I was wrong. But somehow this pain is kind of cosy, it lets me tuck in myself and to take care of myself a bit. No feeling of beeing creative. Today me and my mom fixed a little advent feeling in the flat and now the christmas is highly welcome. Tired eyes looking into all the fuzzy lights.

Moving soundlessly.

Yesterday I made many of these cute christmas cones. They will be at the store Sofias Byrå.

Towards the tree alley.

Not yet winter.

2009-11-24T14:55:00.007+01:00

Morning hell.

I don't know why I'm always so bored at the mornings, the time goes so slowly. I always feel that I can't start doing anything creative when it's early and to bright outside. Today I tried to fight this by getting up when I woke up. Then my body should be done with recharging. I've realized the more you sleep the more tired you get. Tomorrow the fight goes on. And now it's only six days til I'm in Berlin! Looking forward to that.

Thinking about you.

Outside my window #1

Outside my window #2

Outside my window #3

2009-11-21T23:25:00.011+01:00

Something in my eye.

My feet is hurting and I got something in my eye. It never goes away. Something lies there irretating, burning. Again this morning I woke up me kicking my leg in the sleep so hard that I hit sharp edges. This happens too often. If I don't do that I wake up screaming. My dreams are more wierd then ever. Much going on right now and my subconsciousness tells me that something soon will happen. Yesterday I took a walk in the animal park. I realized how important it is to me meeting animals and talking to them. I got totally relaxed and smiled.

Diva and Susi.

The coolest bird ever. We had a long talk and it was standing infront of me and danced, talked and jumped a long while.

Zopf monki!

Hellu.

Bööööööh!

2009-11-18T19:15:00.012+01:00

Music can wait.

Yesterday I met up with Kheira in Gothenburg, I haven't seen this sweet little meedchen girl in a long time. We walked around in the city and filled up our inspiration sorces. Later I made another photo shoot with Sofia to her store and I did hair and make up, it's so fun to be so girly sometimes. I've decided now, that the first thing to do and get developed in, is photos. So next up is to start a photo company. Music can wait, it will be there with me forever anyways. It feels like it's a smart choice.

Another bride pic I made for Sofia.

Süsse Kheira

Susi close up.

Boten.

Somewhere between Alingsås and Gothenburg.

Trying hats at the great, cute, inspiring store Prickig Katt.

Scary baby dolls!

2009-11-16T21:16:00.012+01:00

New ideas.

Based on a dream I had recently.

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Today I made some photos of my friend Sofia to her second hand store. Our theme was bride through time. So, how it turned out you can see here. This gave is the idea of a new project. Let people try out old fashion clothes from her store we fix make up and hair, and then I'll have photoshoots in her store and create a little studio. They can decide with enviroment they want to be in and it all turns out as a vintage photography. Perfect christmas present. Good idea? I've also got a christmas photo job and also to make a christmas card for a company!

2009-11-15T22:06:00.002+01:00

Day rhythm.

My rhythm of the day is totally fucked up now. Sleep long and sleep late. It's true that you're the most creative at nights, and then you get all the inspiration. But this have a bad effect and you start to be tired all the time and the lust of doing something is far away anyways... So time to change this. Enough of late nights and time to get more sun! This also makes me dream a lot, and very strange dreams. Today when I woke up I thought there would be a living doll called Comma in my closet, I putted it there in my dreams. And it took a while when I woke up and understand that nothing was there. Otherways, I'm fine!!

Based on a dream I had as a child.

Rose petals seem to fall...

2009-11-13T02:21:00.007+01:00

120 bpm.

These days it feels like I'm trying to be at many places at once. There's so much that I want to do and it's hard to go to sleep at nights because I don't want to sleep. I just don't get myself the peace to sleep. And now my heart is beating 120 bpm. It's just to realise that I'm here, theres only one of me, life have many days and everything doesn't have to be fixed now. Things can actually wait.

Splitting procedure.

Ugly things are often beautiful.

2009-11-11T02:33:00.003+01:00

Doll house.

Sometimes it feels like we all are made for living in doll houses. Living in the frames of life, with all these things and routines. And someone higher is playing with us. When it has been good for a while, then it has to be bad and good and bad. Maybe we are just toys for something. Feels like it sometimes. Time to get an own doll house then.

Today the wind was so heavy, my umbrella almost flew away!

Snow flakes on my winterjacket.

2009-11-10T01:12:00.005+01:00

Words.

I'm out of words today. The day has just been floating on. For the first time in a very long time, maybe years, I haven't been waiting for the day to just get over. Before I thought that days passed so slowly, now, I can feel the difference.

Wounded bird.

2009-11-09T01:19:00.004+01:00

Dreams.

Today I sewed and sewed. Until something went wrong and I lost the inspiration somewhere on the way. Fabrics stucked on the wrong side, everywhere threads, around me, in my hair, needles in my fingers and my feets. It is ok with breaks, and you can't be creative everyday, all time. To let yourself not be creative, is helping your creativity even more. Push yourself and you will push the will and development over the edge, and in the end, yourself. Time for me to get that. Now time for sewing dreams...

The room where things happen.

Floating underwater...

2009-11-07T03:12:00.006+01:00

Night Walker.

Yesterday I heard something that made me think... If you refuse death, then you refuse life. It has been in my head today, all the time in the background. I started to see how the fear, that the time is so short and you have to get somewhere and do so much in your life to make it grand, makes you afraid of all the ways you actually can go, of all the things you can create. Afraid of create because you maybe spoil the time, afraid of loosing, afraid of trying. Just to not be afraid of the little time we got.. will erase the pressure.. will make you not beeing afraid to see what's inside you, and will make you t r y i n g.

On my way home this night, even if many strange things happen in this town, I was stupid enough to stand alone and still in dark places, but I wanted to capture this night.

Still awake.

2009-11-06T00:33:00.009+01:00

Spinning day.

Today I woke up with my head spinning around and I could hardly walk and the whole world was spinning at left. I fall asleep again and when I woke up again it was a bit better. But still spinning and my legs couldn't barely lift me. I thought what the fuck, and went to Gothenburg to meet up with friends Ida and Maria. And of course I met Marias lovely baby, Malva. So I spended my day in Gothenburg searching for shoes.. You never feel well with cold, cold feets. Time to leave the Chinashoes behind and hello to my new shiny boots, times two. Time to get warm and to feel womanly. This made me forgot about the spinning world around me. After that Ida took care of spinning Susi. We looked at a spinning space movie and then the train was spinning me home. I got so inspired of this spinning thing today. And now the night will just spinn on.

Spinn me around.

At the Alingsås station.

Malva.

In the bus.

Waiting.

New shoes.

2009-11-03T23:17:00.009+01:00

Summer won't let go.

I passed a rosehip bush with some flowers left on, they looked very cold and was shivering in the icy wind. Then I looked for another bush and there were flowers left to! I haven't recognized flowers this late of the year before. Or maybe because I haven't looked for them. This made me glad because it's a sign of that winter just can't hit on us so easily. Winter, sorry but it's not time for you yet.

Two petals finally got the flower for their own.

This yellow fellah looked like it was blooming for the first time.

Wonder what's inside...

2009-11-02T20:06:00.011+01:00

Let it all rain down on me.

Drip, drop, plipp, plopp. I woke up listening a very long while to this sound. I just lied there and it felt so cosy, knowing I'm under the cover, and outside it too cold, grey and way too wet. I stood up and the first thing I did was to get my camera. I was in a rain mood :) A crazy thing today was, I looked out at the window a bit and watched the gray sky. After a little while, it felt like some minutes, I looked out again and it was black! This is scary! This year it feels like I will experience the winter for the first time in my life. The winters before have been passing by without me noticing it. I'm so scared of this winter, don't know why.

Cold and scared.

Morning rain.

Girls like pearls.

Some of the clothes I've been drawing to my collection. Want to order right now? :)

2009-11-01T18:24:00.011+01:00

Sunday again...

I hate sundays, I always have. The streets are empty, and there's a feeling of loneliness in the air. Makes me kind of blue. But this sunday I've been trying to be a little creative so this hate for this day will change. Is there anybody else that have this feeling for sundays? I guess so...

Don't ask me what I was thinking...

"The white lover".

Mysterious birds, maybe wondering about the meaning of existing.

2009-10-30T18:30:00.008+01:00

Windows.

I love going around and looking at old windows, they are both beautiful and scary. Sometimes I'm trying to watch what's happening inside of them. Peaking a bit. I remember my last christmas, somehow it turned out that I had to celibrate it myself. I walked around like in a movie beeing alone at christmas and watching the families gathering around the table, and everywhere, lights. I don't know why but the windows are telling me so much. Every window a different story.

No peaking!

Does even anyone lives here?

Closed for real.

Darkness inside.

Better times will come.

At a walk with my mom we saw some Lights in Alingsås.

Something very fishy appears in the water.

2009-10-27T23:40:00.011+01:00

I have plans of having plans.

I finally got a list, the list of plans in my life. I made it today, and now I don't have to keep it in my head anymore. Also in the list I wrote how I will get there and how to start. Even to start with the tiniest thing and then a tiny thing after and soon the wheel get's going. What's standing on the list I don't tell you now, you will recognize it sooner or later. But God, on the list there's a lot. But I will make it. You should make this list too!

Evil Twins.

Just trying to grab it.

Shadows on a walk in the sun.

In Gothenburg with Ida.

Seiden.

2009-10-25T23:26:00.000+01:00

Helping hand.

I'm spending a lot of time helping my friend Sofia out in her store. I'm there almost every day, decorate, pick clothes, beeing good company, make customers laugh. It's a good thing I can rely on, her store. There I just can hang out a bit per day and have to be creative and even there I will have a little photo gallery and hang out sewed clothes. So because of her store a lot will happen!

The street where things happen.

Reflections.

Sofia in a very pink mood.

Posi Susi.

So check out sofiasfantastiskafantasi.blogspot.com or sofiasbyra.vpsite.se. Come and visit!

2009-10-23T22:51:00.000+02:00

I'll take you back to my hometown.

Now I've been in my hometown a little while, of course you hate it and love it at the same time. Everything has to be so perfect here or, it has the sight of beeing perfect. I'm thinking a lot about future these days. I'm wondering how it will be like having routines like the people going to do the weekly shopping at the supermarket, planning their week, cooking after working, TV, sleeping, wake up, back to business . I see this people, watching them and wonder, how is it like for them. Happy? Bored? Habit? I would like to try having it that way...

Right now I've started to record a lot with a friend, we make cute songs, a start to something better. Never let the flow stops when it comes to music, it's all about two steps ahead and one step back, sooner or later you realize that you're getting somewhere. The important thing is that you have fun on the way.

Wonder.

Buddies!

Well, Halleluja.

Lights in Alingsås: Web of lights.

Lights in Alingsås: Sparkles are falling.

2009-10-18T23:56:00.001+02:00

The way back to Alingsås.

Ready to leave Lund.

Susi in action!

Homeless trees.

Passing by stations and people, who don't know I'm wondering about them.

Gazing over the landscapes, trying to be mindful.

Autumn sun is blinding me.

Eating good and drinking good at Julia's place! Two first class gourmet girls.

Jumping up and down playing Wiiiiiii! Gives condition to those with no condition.

2009-10-16T18:36:00.000+02:00

Back in Sweden.

Now I'm here again. I totally feel like a stranger and it will take a little time before I'll feel like a swedish girl again. Right now I'm in Lund hanging out and just take it easy with friends. On sunday I'll go back to my hometown.

Ghetto Lund Panorama.

Light play.

Light play again.

Cold out at the ocean, warm inside the ferry. On my way from Berlin.

Now eating home delivered pizza, drowning in the sofa.

2009-10-05T19:08:00.000+02:00

Wierd day...

I woke up today feeling wierd after a couple of nightmares. Tomorrow will be better.

Susanna means Lily.

From Janek's window.

2009-10-04T01:27:00.000+02:00

Birthday!

I had a great little birthday party today! I'm so happy over it and I got great presents and I felt like a little princess. I'm always like a little kid when it comes to birthdays. So thank you so much everyone who came and shared this day with me and I totally love the presents!

Of course I had to make a SpongeBob cake!! With marzipan and nutella. It became my little baby of the day. Hurted to cut it :)

Killing SpongeBob!

From Madeleine I got my very own fascinator!

♥

2009-10-02T00:39:00.000+02:00

Cold, cold, cold.

Soon it will look like this. It makes me shivering when I'm thinking about it. But I'm holding on to the the summer just a little, little bit more. And soon it's time for a visit in Sweden again. The autumn there is the best.

2009-09-30T22:35:00.000+02:00

PHOTO BOOST!

I've been in a very good photo mood the last days, don't know why. I want to capture everything I see. I take it as a good sign for starting to be mindful and to be a part of every second, beeing attentive of every details around!

Safe in the nest.

Even if the good moment exists, I've been on the run lately, stressing and running. Trying to get somewhere somehow. I will never be a friend with time. I hunt it all the time or it hunts me..

Finally I have my portfolio ready! Isn't it great? Now I just have to keep my tumbs and hope they want me.

Today I took a trip to Wedding, haven't been there since february. Autumn is here and I freezing my ass off.. Time to go home to Sweden an get my jacket?

Crazy shape gathering in the sky..

Now, anime and sleeping...

2009-09-21T21:06:00.000+02:00

Today has been OK!

Hearts, hearts, hearts everywhere...

... and I could see things in a different perspective...

... I also passed by this one as I do every day, and that makes me happy every every day!

So, pretty OK.

2009-09-20T20:01:00.000+02:00

It's about time that I create a place where I can put moments of my days. No big projects with thousand of photos every update, no big project in making them.. Only pure and easy..