Lights and pain.

My arm is hurting like hell and my body is restless and is cramping. I took the shot yesterday and thought my body were strong to stand the side effects but I was wrong. But somehow this pain is kind of cosy, it lets me tuck in myself and to take care of myself a bit. No feeling of beeing creative. Today me and my mom fixed a little advent feeling in the flat and now the christmas is highly welcome. Tired eyes looking into all the fuzzy lights.

Moving soundlessly.

Yesterday I made many of these cute christmas cones. They will be at the store Sofias Byrå.

Towards the tree alley.

Not yet winter.

Morning hell.

I don't know why I'm always so bored at the mornings, the time goes so slowly. I always feel that I can't start doing anything creative when it's early and to bright outside. Today I tried to fight this by getting up when I woke up. Then my body should be done with recharging. I've realized the more you sleep the more tired you get. Tomorrow the fight goes on. And now it's only six days til I'm in Berlin! Looking forward to that.

Thinking about you.

Outside my window #1

Outside my window #2

Outside my window #3

Something in my eye.

My feet is hurting and I got something in my eye. It never goes away. Something lies there irretating, burning. Again this morning I woke up me kicking my leg in the sleep so hard that I hit sharp edges. This happens too often. If I don't do that I wake up screaming. My dreams are more wierd then ever. Much going on right now and my subconsciousness tells me that something soon will happen. Yesterday I took a walk in the animal park. I realized how important it is to me meeting animals and talking to them. I got totally relaxed and smiled.

Diva and Susi.

The coolest bird ever. We had a long talk and it was standing infront of me and danced, talked and jumped a long while.

Zopf monki!

Hellu.

Bööööööh!

Music can wait.

Yesterday I met up with Kheira in Gothenburg, I haven't seen this sweet little meedchen girl in a long time. We walked around in the city and filled up our inspiration sorces. Later I made another photo shoot with Sofia to her store and I did hair and make up, it's so fun to be so girly sometimes. I've decided now, that the first thing to do and get developed in, is photos. So next up is to start a photo company. Music can wait, it will be there with me forever anyways. It feels like it's a smart choice.

Another bride pic I made for Sofia.

Süsse Kheira

Susi close up.





Boten.

Somewhere between Alingsås and Gothenburg.

Trying hats at the great, cute, inspiring store Prickig Katt.

Scary baby dolls!

New ideas.

Based on a dream I had recently.

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Today I made some photos of my friend Sofia to her second hand store. Our theme was bride through time. So, how it turned out you can see here. This gave is the idea of a new project. Let people try out old fashion clothes from her store we fix make up and hair, and then I'll have photoshoots in her store and create a little studio. They can decide with enviroment they want to be in and it all turns out as a vintage photography. Perfect christmas present. Good idea? I've also got a christmas photo job and also to make a christmas card for a company!

Day rhythm.

My rhythm of the day is totally fucked up now. Sleep long and sleep late. It's true that you're the most creative at nights, and then you get all the inspiration. But this have a bad effect and you start to be tired all the time and the lust of doing something is far away anyways... So time to change this. Enough of late nights and time to get more sun! This also makes me dream a lot, and very strange dreams. Today when I woke up I thought there would be a living doll called Comma in my closet, I putted it there in my dreams. And it took a while when I woke up and understand that nothing was there. Otherways, I'm fine!!

Based on a dream I had as a child.

Rose petals seem to fall...

120 bpm.

These days it feels like I'm trying to be at many places at once. There's so much that I want to do and it's hard to go to sleep at nights because I don't want to sleep. I just don't get myself the peace to sleep. And now my heart is beating 120 bpm. It's just to realise that I'm here, theres only one of me, life have many days and everything doesn't have to be fixed now. Things can actually wait.

Splitting procedure.

Ugly things are often beautiful.

Doll house.

Sometimes it feels like we all are made for living in doll houses. Living in the frames of life, with all these things and routines. And someone higher is playing with us. When it has been good for a while, then it has to be bad and good and bad. Maybe we are just toys for something. Feels like it sometimes. Time to get an own doll house then.

Today the wind was so heavy, my umbrella almost flew away!

Snow flakes on my winterjacket.

Words.

I'm out of words today. The day has just been floating on. For the first time in a very long time, maybe years, I haven't been waiting for the day to just get over. Before I thought that days passed so slowly, now, I can feel the difference.

Wounded bird.

Dreams.

Today I sewed and sewed. Until something went wrong and I lost the inspiration somewhere on the way. Fabrics stucked on the wrong side, everywhere threads, around me, in my hair, needles in my fingers and my feets. It is ok with breaks, and you can't be creative everyday, all time. To let yourself not be creative, is helping your creativity even more. Push yourself and you will push the will and development over the edge, and in the end, yourself. Time for me to get that. Now time for sewing dreams...

The room where things happen.

Floating underwater...

Night Walker.

Yesterday I heard something that made me think... If you refuse death, then you refuse life. It has been in my head today, all the time in the background. I started to see how the fear, that the time is so short and you have to get somewhere and do so much in your life to make it grand, makes you afraid of all the ways you actually can go, of all the things you can create. Afraid of create because you maybe spoil the time, afraid of loosing, afraid of trying. Just to not be afraid of the little time we got.. will erase the pressure.. will make you not beeing afraid to see what's inside you, and will make you t r y i n g.

On my way home this night, even if many strange things happen in this town, I was stupid enough to stand alone and still in dark places, but I wanted to capture this night.

Still awake.

Spinning day.

Today I woke up with my head spinning around and I could hardly walk and the whole world was spinning at left. I fall asleep again and when I woke up again it was a bit better. But still spinning and my legs couldn't barely lift me. I thought what the fuck, and went to Gothenburg to meet up with friends Ida and Maria. And of course I met Marias lovely baby, Malva. So I spended my day in Gothenburg searching for shoes.. You never feel well with cold, cold feets. Time to leave the Chinashoes behind and hello to my new shiny boots, times two. Time to get warm and to feel womanly. This made me forgot about the spinning world around me. After that Ida took care of spinning Susi. We looked at a spinning space movie and then the train was spinning me home. I got so inspired of this spinning thing today. And now the night will just spinn on.

Spinn me around.

At the Alingsås station.

Malva.

In the bus.

Waiting.

New shoes.